COURTNEY ROHAN YOGA

My aunt called me to the table The honest truth On the wooden surface The truth of my monkey ass Realizing not what I am worth I did not want to call her tell her What was going on cause I knew I would be picking my heart up From the linoleum The brown and white tile Impression stuck on my arteries But last night I needed someone To call it what it was Stupid for me to believe in things That are not real Lies leading to more lies One monkey vine to the next So I am happy my heart hurts Because of the truth There is nothing like it Nothing better Than knowing who you have become Even when your ass is exposed And the kitchen with my aunt The only place To pick myself up cleaned From the wood and tile truth Of an ugly situation.  picture taken from: chiclittlehouse.blogspot.com 

I've smoked, talked too much about too much, eaten too much of the wrong foods and drank way more than one night should have allowed me. I believe it is time to stop looking for the fix that feels easy and create a list of fixes that work for us, not against us. Here is the list I pull out when I am stuck, when the day is not bright, when I feel heavy, and the people around me feel even heavier. Use mine or create your own. 1. Pray: Do more here than just utter a prayer.Pray about all that troubles you and all that you are grateful for as well. Be real with the creator and allow Him to be real in return. Say something new and He will do something new in return. 2. Work out: I have recently discovered the treadmill. I want to push myself harder each time, beat my last record, or go a little further. When I am done, I feel good about myself. I have drained myself of excess emotion and thought. 3. Yoga: I have to be careful here. Sometimes, with skirt or dress on, I just drop